Life's a comedy. 人生如戏.

15 September 2008

(15 September 2008/8:58 PM)

I felt like I'm nobody to my class..
No one seems to care if i went to school or not..
No regards sent... okay, except for one...
Thanks Reni..
Shouldn't classmates keep a lookout for each other?
Help each other if they're stuck with their work?
Okay... i know its my fault to give you all a bad impression of me,
someone who don't really care for anything.
Always on the 'i-dont-care' attitude.. those that dont seem to be bothered with homework and studies. but that shows how little you know about me..
I'm just showing a strong front.. hiding my worries and troubles..
face the world positively...
but i cant stand it any longer ...
I choose to escape.. from it..
I don't know what other things to do, except for skipping school..
I know that's not gonna solve the problem..
But what can i do? Face it? How?..
By not going to school, I'm giving up halfway.. being someone not responsible, I'm letting her, my parents and those who've yet to give up on me down
By going to school, I'm like wasting time...
Although that proves that I've tried my best,
but still, I'll even disappoint those people who have yet to give up on me..
I'm really vexed.. Every time i comfort others, I think it's easy to actually solve it...
Now I've met the trouble myself, then i realised how hard is it to solve it.
Retaining isn't something bad also...
It's to give me more time to really get myself ready for Olevels..
why bother promoting me to sec 4express when I'm still not yet in the right mindset..
It does make sense... and think positively..
By retaining, means new classmates..
Higher chance of getting true friends? And there goes the 3 years of bonding..
But it doesn't really matter much...
I didn't really meet any true friends throughout this 3 years...
Like i said, they dont seem to care if i go to school or not..
I'm not attention seeker or someone who need special care from friends..
but at least, show me that you people somehow cared.
And even after knowing that i'm struggling with stress, they dont seem to give a damn.
I'm really disappointed. When there's joy and fun to enjoy, we're brothers. We're the best friends among friends. But when I'm down, they no longer know me. So that my misfortune wouldn't affect their happiness.
Really really really, disappointed.
At least, by retaining, I'm just a failure in academy.
Didn't really fail in knowing who is my true friend, and who isn't.
Somehow, I would succeed in meeting better friends?
I'm like comforting myself..
But thats what i wanna blog about.
If you really think I'm someone dumb or whatever so...
Then let it be your way.
I dont care what others may think about me..
As long as i'm contented with my life, everything shall be fine.
LAOPO Uh, sorry for updating such a toot post uh.

Yet another entry by WEN SHENG.